New developments with spirit

I am in the middle of entering a new territory of spiritual awareness;
I feel there is a ghost in our house. I'm not sure if how long he has
been here, what does he want? Is that why I'm so tired? I'm glad Ive
been listening to James Van Praag's book "Ghosts among us". It has
given me clues/answers to things that have been happening in the
house. The light bulbs burning out in my computer room. The twinkling
lights in the top right corner in the dining room, the black cloud In
the bedroom that moves on it's own. Sometimes I see things.

I really like James Van Praag. I can feel his loving energy. I like the fact that he has been able to help others with his gift. I want to develop my ability to help others also.

I saw the black ghost cat today. I was talking to two Jehova Witness and we were discussing the bible. At one point it got a little tense and the ghost cat ran out the door. The cat saved me. I wish I knew who this cat was. I don't think I ever met her. My friend thinks we should have a prayer circle for the shelter.I have been wanting to do that for almost two years. I also want to develop a psychic development circle so we can all become better listeners of spirits.

How do you know

I have been a vessel for receiving communication from spirit since I was a little girl. I had past life recollections when I was in first grade and saw myself as an old man and my class mate who was also a girl as my grandson. I didn't know at the time I was remembering a past life, but I can still remember when I got near her, I would immediately feel something growing on my face (it was a beard)...later on, when I started to explore psychic stuff, I realized that was the experience I was having...when I was a little girl, it didn't seem strange to me. It seemed natural.

Another experience I had when I was nine years old, I saw my first ghost. We lived next door to an older couple and the wife loved to spend time in her garden. One morning I was playing outside and noticed her once again bending down to attend to her flowers in the garden. Later I told my mother I saw the neighbor lady. "You couldn't have", my mother said very alarmed, "she died two weeks ago."

I had a dream of my maternal grandfather going into a swimming pool and lying down on his back. My maternal grandmother was watching and she was crying, my paternal grand father who had died 6 months earlier had his hand on her shoulder to comfort her.

I was in the kitchen washing dishes while my mother was preparing the family dinner and I told her about my dream. She looked very distressed, but didn't really comment on it...two weeks later my grand father passed away. Then she conveyed to me that he had not been feeling well, but I had no idea about that....

There was a part of me that wanted to communicate with spirits, but also a fear. If I really felt I had the gift, it didn't come easily to me. I felt I blocked it because I was afraid who might try to contact me. So there was the push and pull of my thoughts, the resistance and the embrace at the same time.

I didn't get fully connected to spirit as I am now until I learned to open to the channel where I could communicate with animals. That is when I started trusting the messages I receive. I am now aware of when I have matched the frequency to hear what the non-humans want to tell me. But recently I can feel the pull of spirit to communicate with humans. I know I have a strong spiritual support system that guides and protects me and I can relax.

Recently I gave a message to an acquaintance from her husband who went back into spirit a year ago. I really felt the course of events to how she and I met was orchestrated by him. When he knew I was conscious of him, he started urging me to get on with it and talk to his wife. so I did. I gave her two messages. And the original reason she and I came together seemed to move in a different direction. So I knew that was really why we met.

Spirit voice can be very subtle, especially if you are caught up in the dense energy of "Coulda, woulda, shoulda" this mind chatter can keep spirit from coming through. So my most recent contact is from someone who says "I just got tired and my body gave out. I didn't mean to take pills too many pills, I was just too wound up, I had fear I couldn't measure up anymore so I kept pushing myself. I had loved ones, but the drive to excel I had obsessed over kept creeping into my head, I couldn't seem to stop....I knew I needed to slow down, but I couldn't do it. I thought my loved ones could keep me anchored, they were the loves of my life, they had a rainbow energy of hope and sunshine all around them, but my ego said I had to keep going...then it was too late...I am still so weary...now I worry about them, are they going to be ok? do they know I loved them as much as I did. I tried to give them the love I didn't seem to get from my own father...tell them I will always watch over them and the special teddy bears I got them will our bond and connection...it is ok to cry your heart out for me...I love you forever and always...

I end here. I feel there is so much more to say, but I need to take this slow. as the title reads..How do you know? I don't know...time will tell... if this goes out to the righ people, then I know the info is correct. There is an urging from someone.